Monthly Archives: August 2008

I’ve got the blues.

So I’m back at school.

and I’m sitting in training for my real job during the school year (not the stagehand job I so desperately want to do every day) and I sat there listening to what to do in case of emergency or what to do if something blows up, how to comfort people who come to you for advice…

and I thought: “I wonder what the stagehands are doing right now…”

I never thought I would miss something so terribly.

So, I have the blues…I have the stagehand without a show blues.

This job I have right now seems to invent ways to make me feel uncomfortable. We have to talk about things I don’t want to share, do activities with people I’d rather not be around (my ex), and its just generally awkward and I get really irritated at it. Last year my co-workers were mostly people I knew and I just…felt better. This job is all things I’m not good at or things I don’t know how to do. I want to retreat to the stage where I know how to do everything and I don’t get confused or have to do things that make me doubt myself.

I have to start applying to law schools…but at the same time I apply to law school I’m going to apply for a position on a touring show.
because its my life.

"I don’t need, further back and forth the wave will break on me today…"

Its been an exciting few weeks.

Since the wrap of the summer program I have…done quite a few things.

I traveled deep in to Kentucky for my friends wedding and that turned out quite well. I had a lot of fun and they’re married so everyone went home happy.

The next day at 4:30 in the morning we took of for Minnesota. My grandparents live in Two Harbors, Minnesota up on the North Shore and I’m of the opinion that it is one of the greatest places in the world. We ended up spending a week there which was absolutely fantastic. Nothing takes the edge off like a week in Minnesota.

We got back on Monday and on Wednesday night I took off for West Virginia to assist a promotions company in a video shoot. I learned a lot, had a good time, and even got paid. What more could I ask for? I got back last night and can look back on it and say it was pretty awesome.

So I’m starting my senior year of college week after next…and the feeling I have right now is a feeling of possibility (really, like my Southern Style Chicken Sandwich isn’t settling well) I’m not tied down right now and I just feel like I can do a lot and I should do a lot…so I will.